As Vincent grows from an infant to a child and
then an adult he discovers what life will hold for him. This story is
the sequel to ‘Tale of Orpheus’. It is a Classic rated G.
In a child’s eyes there is a world of hope
In a child’s eyes there is the purest love
In a child’s eyes there are dreams to fulfill
In a child’s eyes all things are possible.
YEAR ONE
Elizabeth was woken by a deep hungry cry and remembered it was her night
to look after baby Vincent. She opened her eyes to look down at the new
addition to the tunnel family, who lay in a carry-basket beside her bed.
Elizabeth’s chamber was not really conducive to the care of an infant.
It was sparse, with the simplest of furnishings and the faint aroma of
turpentine seemed to permeate the very walls. The floor was covered with
drawings and imprints of the artwork which she wanted to transfer to the
walls that were becoming known as ‘The Painted Tunnels’, however these
were all forgotten when Vincent came into her care.
The child was now thriving in the loving care of the women of the
tunnels, and of course Father, and all the other children loved him;
especially Father’s other charge, Devin. There were so few adults able
to care for the growing number of lost children in the tunnels.
Elizabeth thought it was the least she could do to take this unique
child for a night, to give Father some respite.
After the baby’s illness and his growing responsibilities, Father was
beginning to wilt under the strain, even though he would not admit it.
Besides, in this case the old adage ‘it takes a village to raise a
child’ was true and that was what this world was becoming, a village
below the city streets.
Elizabeth got out of bed, put more wood in the small metal bucket she
used to keep the chamber warm, and picked up the three-month-old baby.
He was still undersized, according to Father, but was now quickly
growing out of the hand-knitted baby clothes he wore. They were made
from thick cream wool, with the tunnel touch of leather fastenings. His
thick hair was escaping the bonnet in red-gold waves about his beautiful
face.
While she changed him, his bottle warmed on the small portable gas stove
that traveled with Vincent from chamber to chamber. When she offered the
bottle to him, his little furred hands clung anxiously to it, the tiny
cleft lip latched on to the teat with ravenous enthusiasm, and with low
growl-like gulps he proceeded to consume its entire contents.
As this remarkable child fed, Elizabeth watched him. She was now well
into her fourth decade and had never been one for babies, but Vincent’s
story had touched her heart. This small miracle seemed to wash away all
the sorrows of the past. He was so filled with beauty and promise that
she felt so overjoyed being near him. This was a sentiment often
repeated– and even simply holding him – fulfilled something deep within
her. Hours had passed tonight as she held him, staring down at his
precious sleeping face, and she was surprised that so much time had gone
by, when he began to fuss for his next feed.
After his stomach was full, the babe lay quietly and contentedly looking
up at her, making soft purr-like coos. Elizabeth wondered if he would be
able to speak when he grew older and what kind of child he would be. He
was such a solemn child and Father had said that Vincent’s life wasn’t
expected to be a happy one or even a long one, if his illness was any
example of his state of health. Elizabeth began to wish for such a
different future for this little bundle of possibility, a future filled
with hope. She began to remember her own childhood and began to speak to
him about the happy times before she came here. She was laughing about
some silly thing she had done then and his bright blue eyes were
watching her intently. Then his unique top lip quivered and suddenly his
entire face lit up as his mouth broke into a smile. Elizabeth tickled
his chin and spoke to him softly and the smile broadened. Her heart
soared at this precious gift; it was so overwhelming that it brought
tears to her eyes.
She examined the tiny face with her artist’s eye for detail – a soft
touch and sensitive fingers traced his soft curved cheek – smoothing the
same downy fur that covered his entire body. Then she ran a finger down
the flat bridge of his nose to his kitten-like lip. He made a sound, not
quite a purr, more like a deep throaty sigh and then closed his eyes.
She continued to smooth his nose from just below the red-gold curls on
his forehead to the tip of his nose.
“You are such a beautiful child,” she murmured with love. Although she
had never had children of her own she had known love and she had enough
of it to give this unique child. She made up her mind to paint this
little miracle on the walls, perhaps in his Father’s arms.
*****
Father was in his study – or what would one day be his study,
when the chamber was finished, and more books and furniture could be
scavenged from the world above. He was reading a battered and dog-eared
copy of Homer’s Iliad as he watched over the unique and
beautiful child he had adopted almost a year ago. He heard a thud and
looked up to see Vincent struggle to his feet yet again, take a few
steps and then plop down on his padded behind once more. He was dressed
in sturdy rompers made from an old coat and a cream woolen sweater that
had been lovingly knitted by Mary, one of the newcomers to the tunnels.
Mary had lost her own children and husband in a fire and she seemed to
want to mother everyone – even Father on occasion. Her thoughtfulness
fit in so well with the growing cocoon of this blossoming utopian world.
Being with the children seemed to be helping Mary a great deal. She also
had a way of turning old clothes into new ones for those in the tunnel
community. Much of what had been found, Mary had remade into something
quite different and a new style of clothing was emerging. She especially
enjoyed making clothes for Vincent, who was inclined to grow out of his
clothes overnight and while crawling had been going through the knees of
his rompers very quickly. The pair he was wearing today had already been
repaired once with dark brown patches of corduroy on the knees. Vincent
was also wearing a tiny pair of sheepskin boots – which had also been
made from an old coat and strapped on. Perhaps once he was walking
Vincent might be a little gentler on his clothes, Father hoped, but he
doubted it, as he watched the boy. Whatever Vincent seemed to do he did
with a thoroughness that held no bounds, be it exploring every inch of
this chamber finding what he could and could not touch. He was a
well-behaved child and would only need to be told once or at the most
twice, what he must not touch to leave it alone in the future. Vincent
was a refreshing change from Devin, who was constantly getting himself
into interesting and sometimes alarming situations.
As Father watched, Vincent crawled over to the nearest piece of
furniture, an old faded red fabric and wood chair, and pulled himself up
to again stand on his sturdy little legs and he turned toward his father
for approval.
“Well done.” Father declared, clapping his hands with pride and
Vincent’s mouth turned up in a bright smile. His bright blue eyes filled
with a baby’s innocent joy, and his unruly hair glowed in the
candlelight like a thick red-gold halo about his head. He had all of his
teeth already, unusual for one so young. They were strong and some were
more pointed than usual, but Father saw this only as one more of the
many differences in this child. Vincent had never bitten anyone, even in
play – another clue to his gentleness of spirit and Father hoped that
his son would never have a need to change.
Father put down his book and held out his hands and encouraged him with,
“Well, come on then. You can do it.”
Vincent was not very vocal, even when highly excited and he was yet to
speak his first word, which concerned Father greatly. Would he be able
to speak? But he had great hope for this child for there was great
intelligence behind those wide blue eyes and he knew that one day
‘little Vincent’ would surprise everyone.
The kitten-like face fixed on him and Father spoke again. “Come on, come
to Daddy,” and without hesitation the child let go of the chair and took
three steps to the man who in all intents and purposes was his
father.
With a throaty chuckle, Vincent’s fur covered hands, tipped with tiny
claws, touched his father’s and with one swift movement he was scooped
up over Father’s head, emitting another deep chuckle as he was spun
around in a circle. Father reveled in these moments as he believed each
one was a miracle.
Vincent had had a rough first year. There were many times when he would
come down with some unknown malady that would have him feverish and weak
for days. Then it would suddenly pass and the child would recover and
leap forward in his development.
He hardly complained nor cried unless he was in great pain and Father
even with his extensive knowledge of medicine was at a loss to know what
to do at these times, since normal medication was useless and sometimes
even dangerous for Vincent.
The other tunnel dwellers had dubbed Vincent their miracle child
and some even said that he was the tunnel’s lucky charm and as long
as he lived the tunnel community would prosper. And so far, it had done
just that. Since John Pater’s banishment, the community had bonded
together tighter than ever and Vincent was the symbol of that bond that
they clung to.
When Father brought Vincent down from his high perch, the boy put both
of his arms around his neck and laid his head on a shoulder and cooed
his love.
Father was always touched by the extent of the love this child
expressed, and the patience he exhibited as he tried to hold things with
his tiny clawed hands. It was becoming apparent that he might be left
handed. Even when he was teething as an infant it was his left fist he
would force into his mouth.
When Vincent hadn’t moved or made a sound, Father realized the baby had
fallen asleep. There was no tired tantrum, no sign whatsoever that he
was getting tired – another example of this child’s placid nature.
Father slowly rose from the chair and carried the sleeping child to the
chamber he shared with Devin, where a crib had been set up, and placed
the boy gently onto the thick mattress. His little head turned to the
side and he sighed. Father smoothed the thick hair away from his second
son’s eyes and bent and kissed his brow. He covered him with a thick
quilt and left the room.
*****
She climbed the winding staircase from her safe haven far below, and the
darkness where her eyes saw everything clearly. In this light of many
candles and torches she did not see as well, but even the discomfort it
caused was worth it to answer her questions. She had heard rumors and it
was time she saw for herself. Only something as amazing as this new
child would bring her away from her home and her work.
She finally came to a place she had not seen since long before this new
man had taken it as his own. Not since before when the ‘Evil One’ had
used it as a meeting place, but it looked stark and ugly then. Now, as
she stopped at the top of the small flight of steps, even her failing
eyesight saw a warm chamber with an old red carpet on the floor, old but
comfortable chairs and a large table with books scattered upon it.
In one corner, wood burned brightly in a large metal drum. She knew that
the wood was collected from all over the city to fuel it, and others
like it. It would never be allowed to go out, or these chambers and
rooms would soon become too cold to live in.
In one of the chairs a man sat, and on his knee was a child of perhaps
one year, avidly listening as the man read a story from an old book. As
she listened she realized that the book was not a child’s story, but
about a man named Odysseus. All she could see of the child was a mass of
copper curls as he looked down at the book. She knew he was not an
ordinary child.
Although she had not made a sound suddenly the child looked up, and she
was struck, not by the face which she had been expecting, but by the
intelligence in his large blue eyes. She felt a shiver go down her spine
as those eyes seemed to see into her very soul.
When he realized the child was no longer listening, the man also looked
up, and his expression asked a question which she decided to answer.
“I have come to see the child,” she declared softly, in a musical,
lilting accent and unhurried manner.
“Oh?” the man asked, as she made her way slowly down the stairs.
“I mean no harm,” she asserted with a smile.
“You are welcome then madam, come in, please. I am Father.” The man gave
a friendly smile and there was an expectant pause as he waited for her
to introduce herself. She did not to so, there was no need. This
‘Father’ knew who she was.
“Father,” she declared as she came closer, “Not of the child I’ll
warrant.”
“No, Vincent is a foundling.”
“Hmm,” she murmured as she stopped before them.
As they had spoken, the child had not taken his eyes from the newcomer,
and when she spoke to him it was as though he was not a child at all.
“And you, young sir, what secrets hide behind those angel eyes? What
demons do you harbor within you, I wonder?” with the last word she bent
over and her dark face came close to that of the child, who looked at
her with curious innocence.
“Hmm,” the old woman murmured again, watching the boy intently “You
perceive no threat from me, then?”
Still the innocent gaze held hers, but when she drew a long bladed knife
from its hiding place, in her voluptuous skirts and held it in a
threatening manner, the child reacted instantly. His top lip quivered,
and he bared his sharp canines, as a low, yet immature growl came from
his throat.
“Ah, there it is,” she declared with triumph.
“Vincent! Madam, stop this at once!” Father demanded, but Vincent’s
growl continued. His eyes fixed on the knife in the old woman’s hand.
“He is not listening to you … Father. He hears the voice from within. It
tells him there is danger. But he does not protect himself. Look, he is
protecting you.” There was admiration in her voice.
“Me, but that’s impossible. He’s only a baby.”
“Babe perhaps, but well able to protect himself and you too I’ll
warrant. Look at him. His eyes are on me, but he protects you, see…” She
moved from side to side, with the knife held high. Vincent moved with
her, keeping between the knife and his father. His growl began to grow
louder and more threatening.
“Stop this at once!” Father demanded angrily.
Even though his father had raised his voice, Vincent’s attention never
wavered from the weapon, and the threat, until the woman put the knife
away. Then blue eyes met brown and Narcissa smiled for the first time
and Vincent’s expression settled into the calm inquisitive stare again.
Father stood, lifting the infant into his arms, cradling him
protectively, clearly shaken by what had just occurred. The child laid
his head on Father’s shoulder and put his arms around the man’s neck.
“He’s tired, I will put him to bed, and then madam, you and I will have
words.”
“I am not going anywhere,” Narcissa stated, unfazed by the threat.
Turning, she wandered about the chamber, touching this and that. When
Father returned a few moments later he was behind her, she spoke without
looking in his direction. “You have made this place a home, Father” She
picked up a book, bringing it close to her face to read what was on the
cover. “Rikki Tikki Tavi. Hmm … Do you think that child
understands these stories?”
“Of course he does!” Father declared defensively.
Narcissa was still for a moment with her back to him. When she turned to
face him she declared with conviction “That is not all he understands.”
“What do you mean?”
“He is more than what he seems.”
“Well yes, he will have a very different life than the rest of us.”
“More than you know … Father” Her voice was questioning on the last
word.
“Madam Narcissa, I know you have a way of seeing things that others do
not, but this cryptic way of speaking is really annoying. Please get to
the point.”
Narcissa walked slowly across the room to where he stood. “That child
has the power to become a force for great good or great evil. Do you
think you will be the one to help him overcome his evil nature?”
“There is not one evil bone in that child’s body!”
“Not in the body, Father – the soul. If you can strengthen the man,
teach him, guide him, he may be saved. He is made up of two
beings Father, one good, and one evil. They will struggle forever,
Father. They are not like oil and water. No they are fire and
ice. One must always be kept from the other, for if they should
ever mix, one will be destroyed. And not even Narcissa can know which
will win.”
“I have never seen Vincent behave in such a way before. Was that the
fire we just saw? Is that what you mean?” Father was finally beginning
to understand what Narcissa meant.
“The blood lust must not be permitted to rise in him. When it showed
itself here – ” she pointed at the chair where Father and Vincent had
been sitting, “the child was able to suppress it quickly when the danger
passed. He is young and his instinct is strong. You are a good man
Father. Love, peace, beauty – these things you must teach the boy, so
that the man will be strong enough to keep the beast at bay. He must be
taught to show only the man.”
“How do I do that?”
“You will know how. You are already giving the future man what he needs,
but the beast is mindless and cannot be taught. It will try to escape in
time and if the boy or the man releases the beast, it could one
day destroy him.” Her dark eyes impaled the man before her as he
continued to watch her. “But this you must remember, Father. If the
passions rise within him. That too will bring forth the beast. Make him
aware of the beast that resides within him at all times. Let him beware
of it, fear it. Never let him forget it, for it will never
rest. For him there must be no expression of love. For him passion and
the beast will go hand in hand. You must tell him this. For as a man can
lose himself in the act of love, so it will be with the child,
especially when he begins to become a man.” She lifted a finger to
Father as she finished, “Watch him close, Father, or you both may lose
the man.”
She turned away then, her warning given, and began to climb the stairs.
Without another word, she made her way out of the chamber and back to
her world, leaving behind a man determined to put her warning into
action, in the only way he knew how.
*****
It was the twelfth of January – the anniversary of the day that Anna
Pater found the tiny bundle behind St Vincent’s hospital. And the entire
community had assembled in Father’s study for the celebration of
Vincent’s birth.
The speeches had been made, the cake cut and the guest of honor was
enjoying the undivided attention of the entire room. He toddled unaided
from one person to another, almost falling several times, but quickly
regaining his balance to toddle off in a new direction and a new
adventure.
Vincent had sat on his father’s lap as the candle had been lit and then
encouraged to blow it out. He had laughed in the way only he
could; with a deep rumbled in his throat, and his face had lit up as
much as the tip of the tiny candle, sensing the excitement in the room,
all directed at him. Now he was merely bathing in the love of his
family.
Later that evening, Father and Devin, were reading at Father’s desk
after all the excitement had died down. Vincent, who had been playing on
the floor with brightly colored blocks, pushed himself to his feet and
made his stumbling progress to his big brother, holding a wooden horse
in his hand. Lifting it toward Devin he said, “Dev?” The one word spoken
in a soft, yet throaty voice.
Father looked at Vincent and then his son, who at five was full of joy.
“He said my name! Vincent said my name!” Devin said excitedly.
“Yes, Devin and it was the first word he has ever spoken.” Father
replied looking down at his son with a hand on the top of Vincent’s
bright head.
“And it was my name,” the boy repeated happily, overwhelmed.
Vincent, unaware of the momentous occasion, turned and waddled back to
his other handmade toys, scattered all over the floor.
******
YEAR THREE
“Vincent! Come back here!” Mary called, as she came hurrying down the
tunnel after the boy.
Vincent ran into the study and hid behind Father’s chair. Mary paused at
the top of the rough stone stairs, breathing heavily from the chase.
“What’s the matter, Mary?” Father asked, confused as to why Vincent
would be hiding from her.
“That child is very hard to catch” Mary replied, with a soft laugh.
“Why do you want to catch him?”
“I thought it was time he had a haircut. Look at his hair. It’s almost
to his shoulders, and it’s so untidy.”
“No Father. No haircut,” Vincent’s deep murmur came from behind him.
Father turned to Vincent and saw the determination in his blue eyes and
then back to Mary, who he knew was only concerned for the boy’s
appearance.
He drew Vincent from behind the chair to stand before him. “Mary only
wants to make you look tidy Vincent. She won’t cut you.”
Vincent’s chin firmed and his eyes searched his father’s face. “No
Father. Please?”
A child of few words, but the meaning was clear – he didn’t want his
hair cut. Father’s gaze went first, to the boy and then Mary, “Would it
be so bad if Vincent’s hair was worn longer than the other children,
Mary?”
“Well,” Mary murmured as she looked at the pleading look in Vincent’s
eyes. “I suppose not. But you must allow me to at least trim the ends
occasionally, Vincent. It keeps it healthy,”
With a reluctant look, first at Mary and then back to Father, Vincent
nodded.
“Good. Now go with Mary and then come and show me when she’s finished.”
Then to Mary Father added, “Let him have his hair as long as he wants
it, Mary. He asks for so little.”
As Vincent passed her Mary smoothed his golden head. “Yes, Father,” she
conceded, and then she turned and followed the boy out of the room.
*****
YEAR FIVE
Vincent was running through the tunnels trying to find his brother in a
game of hide and seek. He could sense someone up ahead, but it didn’t
smell like Devin. In fact it smelt more like Father …
What was Father doing down here in the lower tunnels? Then Vincent
realized what it was. Devin was probably wearing one of Father’s old
coats, to put him off the scent. Laughing softly to himself at Devin’s
ingenuity, even though it wouldn’t have worked for long, Vincent was
thrilled; it had almost caused him to turn his attention in the opposite
direction.
Devin was feeling very proud of himself for having outwitted his little
brother, and then suddenly out of the darkness, a tawny shape pounced on
him, and with a yell, and then a laugh, Devin rolled over with Vincent
tickling him until he cried Uncle.
*****
YEAR SEVEN
The children squealed as they jumped naked into the freezing water.
Vincent stood on the rocky shore, watching, fully clothed.
“C’mon Vincent!” Devin called from the water’s edge as he treaded water.
“No.” Vincent murmured softly, suspiciously eyeing the dark waters.
Devin came out of the water dripping and shivering. “C’mon lil’ brother,
what are you afraid of? It’s only water.”
Vincent didn’t look at his brother, He looked down at his feet. “But I’m
afraid, Devin.”
“Afraid? What of?”
“I’m not sure,” Vincent didn’t look up.
“Look little brother, since we found this place we’ve been swimming in
it, and there’s nothing in there to hurt you. I’ll teach you to swim if
that’s the problem.”
Vincent’s eyes lifted to those of his brother. “It’s not that. I can
swim, I know I can. Its just that I won’t be able to swim with
the others Devin.”
“Why not?”
“I am not like them …”
“With all that hair on your body you mean?”
“They will laugh at me.”
“Y’know sometimes you drive me crazy, Vincent. Yeah you are
different and you’ve been different all your life. So what’s new? You’ve
been hiding how you look long enough. We’re all the same. You have two
legs and two arms and you’re just like the rest of the boys. I think you
worry too much about how others will look at you. Besides, you should be
able to swim better than anyone. You’re stronger than they are. C’mon.”
He took his brother by the arm.
Finally willing, but not totally unconvinced, Vincent began to disrobe.
When he was fully undressed, he stood for a moment beside his brother.
“Ready?” Devin asked
With a long sigh, Vincent replied, softly. “Not really.” But he walked
with his brother toward the water’s edge. The other children were having
so much fun they didn’t even notice that Vincent had joined them.
When Devin jumped in, Vincent took a deep breath and plunged in. It was
like floating on a cloud, and he began treading water like the other
children, to find he had natural buoyancy. When Devin dove under, his
white behind was the last thing Vincent saw before his brother
disappeared. He laughed with joy bubbling within him and without another
thought, Vincent did the same.
The experience was breathtaking; his entire body seemed to glide though
the water with ease. His long hair flowed about his face, and he found
that holding his breath was very easy. He opened his eyes and saw the
beams of light lancing down through the water, from the fissures in the
ceiling above, and the franticly kicking legs of the other children
swimming around him. It was fascinating.
He felt a tug on his hair and surfaced to see Devin treading water
beside him. “Well, lil’ brother?”
There were no words, and Vincent grinned and dove beneath the water
again, going as deep as his lungs would let him, knowing that his
brother followed only half way. But Vincent kept going deeper and deeper
and still he could not see the bottom of the pool. His lungs began to
burn and he knew he must surface; he made up his mind that one day he
would keep going until he touched the very floor of the pool. Then with
bubbles cascading about his face, he slowly rose to the surface to meet
a group of frightened faces.
“Vincent!” Devin called, swimming over to him, “we thought you’d
drowned, when you didn’t come up with us!”
Looking around him at the faces of his friends, Vincent felt guilty and
confused; he hadn’t realized they would worry. “I’m sorry, I just kept
going deeper and deeper.”
Devin, more relieved than frightened, pushed Vincent under the water,
“Do it again little brother, and show us how deep you can really go.
We’ll see who can go the deepest.”
With a challenging grin, Vincent submerged, and all those who wanted to
try followed, but Vincent always went the deepest.
YEAR TEN
“C’mon,” Mitch whispered
They were in the rail yard looking for metal scraps to sell. It had been
Mitch’s idea. Suddenly, Vincent sensed something, and then the smell hit
him like a blow. He left the other children and followed his senses to a
railcar. It was loaded with three huge wooden crates and there was
something alive inside.
Vincent put a hand flat on the box and heard a sniff, and then a
questioning grunt. Through one of the five holes in the front of the
crate he saw an eye. It was night, but Vincent’s night-sight showed him
clearly, that it was a big, golden, cat’s eye.
He stared at the eye, and the eye stared back, and ‘something’ passed
through him, a feeling of familiarity, of knowing this creature. Vincent
gasped as with a deep purr, the lion slipped its tongue through the hole
and licked his face.
Startled, Vincent jumped back startled and stared at the crate. A
feeling of rage began to rise from deep within him. These creatures were
being treated dreadfully they should be out in the plains of Africa,
free and happy, not caged and surrounded by wooden crates. He began to
feel angry at this terrible injustice, and then out of his control a
growl rumbled from his throat. Before he knew it, the growl had turned
into an immature roar. The three lions joined him as his angry
exaltation echoed through the yard.
Vincent seemed to lose a part of himself, as the roar went on and on. It
was as if a part of him that had lain dormant all his life, had suddenly
awoken. He had never felt so wonderful. His skin tingled, his heart
pounded, and the blood in his veins felt like liquid fire spreading
throughout his body as the roar rose and fell. It was exhilarating. He
felt free, as though awakening from a long dark sleep, to a world of
light. Then he heard his name being called from a distance, and men’s
voices. As though coming out of a dream he sensed danger, and
reluctantly but abruptly ceased his exaltation.
Vincent saw the other children running toward him and in moments he was
running for his life. The other boys Mitch, Frankie, Winslow and Pascal,
were all in front of him, but the men were closing fast. Looking back
for an instant, Vincent saw the glint of a knife in the nearest man’s
hand, and began to run faster, fear fuelling his escape.
“C’mon, Vincent!” Mitch called, as he held open the grate that was the
entrance to the tunnels.
The others having disappeared Below, all that Vincent needed to do was
get there before the man with the knife caught him. Suddenly he felt a
hand clamp down on his shoulder, and without thinking he swiped his
claws across the man’s hand. The man screamed and let go, and Vincent
ran to the grate and slid into the safety of the tunnels, with Mitch
following swiftly behind. They ran as fast as they could to get far away
from the entrance, in case the men followed them.
When they were safely away, Mitch yelled angrily, “You stupid little
freak!” pushing at Vincent from behind, “You almost got us killed!”
“We wouldn’t have been there if you hadn’t said it was safe Mitch.”
Pascal declared in Vincent’s defense.
“Well, I didn’t expect lion-boy here to go all animal on us!” Mitch
complained.
“Don’t call Vincent that!” Pascal commanded.
“I’m sorry, Mitch. I got distracted,” Vincent apologized.
Mitch turned on Vincent, “Those cats are going to some zoo Vincent.
Maybe we shoulda left you there to go with em. If you wasn’t petting
them in the first place and getting em all worked up, those guys would
never have noticed us. But you had to go all jungle on us! If you’d have
stayed away, they wouldn’t have seen us, and nothin like that woulda
happened, and we’d have gotten away with somethin to sell. Now we got
nothing, and they’ll be lookin for us in the future, so we can kiss that
money maken scheme goodbye!” He pointed a finger at Vincent’s nose, “And
it’s all your fault!”
“Leave him alone, Mitch!” Winslow threatened, “Or I’ll bust your nose!”
Mitch backed away from Vincent and hurried down the tunnel, away from
the others, with Frankie running after him. Winslow turned to Vincent,
“Don’t let him get to ya Vincent.”
Vincent was silent. The way Mitch always spoke to him hurt sometimes,
but what had happened had revealed a part of himself that Vincent had
never experienced before, and his mind was in turmoil. The other
children tried to bring him out of his melancholy mood on the way back
to the home tunnels, but they were not successful. Vincent knew he
needed to talk to Father.
He walked into Father’s study. It had been only months since Devin went
missing, and Vincent wished he could speak to Devin, as Father was still
taking it very hard. And although he didn’t wish to bring Father any
more pain Vincent had to speak with someone about what had happened.
“Father,”
Father lifted his head from the ever-present book he was reading and
spoke softly. “Oh hello, Vincent,” Noticing that the boy’s mood was
solemn he asked, “Is something wrong?”
Vincent came into the room and sat in the chair next to his father.
“Father something happened tonight …”
Father sat up straight, an old fear rising from deep within him. “What
happened?”
Knowing that to tell his father where they had been that night would
only bring trouble, Vincent tried to make where he had been as vague as
possible.
“I …saw some animals tonight and was drawn to them … and something
happened to me.”
Father seemed to be more interested in what had happened to Vincent,
than where the animals were. “What happened to you?”
“I … lost myself.”
“Lost yourself, how?”
Vincent looked down at the worn carpet, his thoughts going inward. “I
don’t know, I … was separated in some way into two parts, it was as
though I was not myself,” he put a hand to his chest, “The part of me
talking now was pushed aside in some way, and another part came forward
…”
“I see, and it frightened you,” Father was not surprised, and Vincent
didn’t notice this at first in his concern. He thought about Father’s
words for a moment, and then becoming excited he rose to his feet and
paced back and forth. “No, Father I was not frightened, not then, it was
only after when I realized what had happened. But when it came over me,
I felt happier than I had ever felt before in my life, and I felt strong
and angry at the same time, as though I could have torn the crates apart
and released those poor creatures.” He turned to face at his startled
parent and then added. “Father, I felt I could do anything …
anything. It was wonderful, but it felt wrong at the same time,” He
gave his father a quizzical look, waiting for an explanation.
Father well remembered Narcissa’s words from long ago, and he sought out
a way to convey her warning to the boy without frightening him too much.
Vincent had felt for the first time, the power of his instinctive side,
the blind, mindless part of himself that uncontrolled, could do great
damage – not only to himself but to others, and Father had to nip his
son’s enjoyment of this primal side in the bud, quickly.
He rose and walked over to the boy, putting a hand on Vincent’s shoulder
as he said, gently, “I know how exhilarating it must have felt to let
that part of yourself free, Vincent. But you must never allow it to
happen again.”
Vincent felt like a bucket of cold water had been thrown in his face. He
was confused, and he could see that his father knew the shock his words
had caused.
“But Father it felt …”
“No, Vincent!” Father interrupted. The boy believed he had discovered a
treasure but in fact it was a Pandora’s Box, and he had to be made to
see this. Realizing he had spoken harshly, Father softened his voice,
and tried to explain. He led Vincent over to a chair and urged him to
sit. “Vincent, we have never spoken about your – differences.” He looked
down at his son, who looked away, “There comes a time in every boy’s
life when he begins to change and certain things need to be explained.
What you experienced tonight is part of those changes.”
Vincent thought this was ‘the talk’ Devin would often say that Father
would force him to endure one day, and could not see any connection.
“But what’s that got to do with what happened tonight Father? I know
about – girls and boys. But this is different …” but his father held up
a hand, halting his affirmation.
“No, Vincent. Not for you. Please listen, I know you understand about
such things but this is not different. It is connected. As much
as I have tried to spare you, you are not like other boys and for you
some things can never be.”
Vincent lowered his head again. This declaration of his differences was
painful to hear, even though it was something he could only forget in
his dreams.
Father put a hand on Vincent’s shoulder, wishing he could have waited
until the boy was older, but there was no knowing what was happening in
Vincent’s young body. “This exhilaration you felt tonight, must be
denied, Vincent. It is connected to that mindless part of you, and it
must always be kept under control it could become a danger to you and
others.”
“But I don’t understand Father …”
Father understood how young Vincent really was, but he had to convey
what was needed as clearly as possible. “Vincent, if you allow this part
of you to surface it might try to intrude at other times.” He lifted the
boy’s chin and gazed into his troubled blue eyes, speaking gently,
knowing that what he was about to ask was going to be the hardest thing
he had ever done. “You must overcome this pleasure you felt Vincent, and
you must never give in to it. You must deny that part of
yourself. Always.”
There were tears in Vincent’s eyes as he realized how extensive this
denial must be, and asked softly. “Always?”
Feeling like a judge giving a death sentence to an innocent, Father
stated gently, “Always …”
Feeling as though he had been struck, Vincent gasped and began to weep,
as Father delivered the final blow. “I am so sorry but you can never
have the same life as other boys, Vincent not ever.” Then he bent and
put his arms around the boy and let him cry.
YEAR THIRTY
Vincent walked slowly through the tunnels, reliving his farewell with
Catherine…
“I owe you everything – everything,” she had declared, and he could feel
her gratitude.
“You owe me nothing,” he had replied, and it was true. He had gained so
much from knowing Catherine. “I’m part of you Catherine, just as you’re
a part of me ... Wherever you go wherever I am, I’m with you.” Then she
had embraced him.
His heart had skipped a beat as he held her, hardly believing it was
happening. Just as in the basement of her apartment building, when he
had first taken her home, she had moved into his arms and thanked him.
All his senses were alive with her, her fragrance, her warmth and her
presence. The warm glow of that part of her that now resided within him.
It was like a dream come true, and for the first time in his life he saw
the world in a new way – not just his world but the world Above, because
Catherine was there, and through her he saw things that he’d never seen
before. He was changed. He would never be the same again.
He walked slowly, savoring every look, every touch. He expected to never
see her again, but he was certain that he would think of her every
moment of every day for the rest of his life.
When he entered Father’s study, his cloak brushing the steps behind him,
Father was still sitting at the chess board. He rose to his feet clearly
agitated and demanded. “My God, Vincent where have you been? You rushed
out of here in such a hurry. What happened?”
Vincent removed his cloak, folding it neatly over the banister then sat
in the chair across the chess board from his father. He took one of the
chess pieces, absently turning it in his hands
“Catherine … was in danger. I had to save her.”
“In danger … What do you mean?”
“I …felt her fear and …”
“You, felt her fear?” his father interrupted, amazed and
alarmed.
“Yes.”
“I don’t understand. This has never happened to you before.”
“No.” That one word held a world of meaning.
“I see.” Father murmured. But he didn’t see, not really. All he could
see was the look in a young boy’s eyes many years ago when he had been
told a terrible truth. His mind was spinning with all the ramifications
of this event. His heart was filled with fear for his son. There could
only be sadness and pain ahead. There was silence between them.
When Vincent had said he still felt connected to this woman
from the world Above. It was the first he had mentioned about any kind
of connection. Vincent had developed abilities to sense a person’s
intent and emotions as he grew, but it had always been a tentative thing
and only temporary. This – continuing connection – with this young woman
was unheard of. It could only bring Vincent pain.
As the silence stretched between them, Vincent looked at his hands as he
held the chess piece. These hands had just taken three lives to save one
treasured one. He had never killed before, and the horror of this act
was tempered only by the fact that those men would have killed
Catherine, had he not acted. For the first time in his life he was faced
with what that ‘hidden’ part of his psyche could really do when let
loose, and it disturbed and terrified him more than he could ever
express. He well remembered Father’s words when he was a boy, about what
could happen if he allowed this ‘thing’ within him free reign, but
tonight he had no choice. It had happened so quickly, he acted without
thought the instant he’d felt Catherine’s terror. He couldn’t have
stopped it, even if he’d wanted to. Without it Catherine would now be
dead, and that was something that he would risk anything to prevent.
He had washed the blood from his hands after saying good bye to
Catherine. He did not want Father to know what he’d done to save
Catherine, not yet. It was all still too raw, and Father would be
appalled it he found out.
“Will you be seeing her again?” Father asked quiwtly, finally breaking
the silence.
Vincent didn’t answer at once. He was remembering how ashamed he’d been
when he realized that Catherine had seen that part of him that he’d
repressed for so long. He had expected her to run from him screaming,
but instead she had come to him, taking his blood covered
hands, fearful only at the sound of a police siren and had said, “We
can’t stay here,” thinking only of him. He should never see her
again.
He shook his head, looking at his hands. “I don’t think so, Father,”
Although he could want nothing more.
Father bent forward and placed a hand over both of Vincent’s, “Perhaps
it’s for the best.”
Vincent stared down at Father’s hand. It was much smaller than his, the
fingerless glove fraying in places, but it had always conveyed comfort.
Now it was only a reminder of how different Vincent really was. He
examined his own hands with a detached eye, the hair covering the backs
of each hand, the bare palm, and the claws, sharp and thick. These were
weapons. The mark of what he was capable of; they had aided him tonight
in doing good, by committing evil. He had released that which should
never be released, to save the woman he loved.
Had it been justice or vengeance? Did the end justify the means? Where
would it lead?
So many questions, and he had no answers. Only one certainty declared
itself plainly. His life would never be complete without Catherine. In
her presence he felt at peace. He was only alive when he was with her,
but he couldn’t be with her as a normal man could. Should he
distance himself from her, to avoid this ever happening again? Would
that be enough? It had to be enough? The alternative held only disaster.
A vague memory surfaced suddenly.
‘He heard a scream, and suddenly the blood flowing hotly through his
veins turned to ice when he realized what had happened, what he had
done.
“Lisa!” He wanted to apologize, but she was looking at him with fear
and horror, and her hand came away from her shoulder covered in blood.
“Lisa?” he pleaded, but she backed away. Then Father was there …
He closed his eyes, but it did not stop the memory replaying in his mind
with Catherine’s face instead of Lisa’s.
He swallowed the lump in his throat and finally answered in a whisper,
“Perhaps …”
When he left Father’s chamber and went to his own, he tried to find the
conviction he needed to carry out his decision. He lay on his bed, as
deep within him a war raged. Placing an arm over his eyes, he tried to
find peace, and unbidden Catherine’s sleeping mind intruded on his. He
calmed instantly falling into a deep sleep and began to dream an
impossible dream …
THE END
