By Cindy Rae
note: In science, there is an understanding that matter and energy are never
lost. That they simply change form. Burning wood is usually offered as an
example of this idea. The wood, matter, changes to energy, heat. It also
changes to ash, and mingles with the earth, while the energy is released into
the atmosphere, its smoke ascending. The “wood” is still there. But it is
idea has created certain laws for physicists, and a chance for us to play.
is never created or destroyed. It just changes form.”
The Law of Mass Conservation, Antoine Lavosier, physicist
are all star stuff.” - Carl Sagan, astrophysicist, astronomer, and cosmologist
Astral Couple shimmered closer to New York, riding the wings of a celestial
can't be here," he told her.
swear to you they are. Can't you feel them, my love?" she answered her
leonine husband. They drew closer to the New York skyline, from above.
is a legion in there." He indicated the metropolis of one of the largest
cities on Earth. "That would be insanity for me." A nova's shadow
shifted across his broad muzzle.
gave him a full smile. "Ah, love. You've been insane, before." She
purred the words as they hovered near a particular balcony. A particular
couple paced its stones.
I told you they were here," Astral Catherine told her eternal mate.
as always, you are right, my glorious love." He stayed near her. Always
near her. It was his fate, and his constant blessing.
like the country, more,” he said. “You can see the children, better." He
looked above to where the stars glittered in the heavens, but not too brightly
children. My children! My children shine, everywhere!" She shouted it,
and spun in a joyous circle, starlight casting from her fingertips. It was a
gorgeous March night, for the equinox of this place.
look beautiful," he told her, indicating both the ethereal vision before
him and the mortal one, on the stones. Her mortal arms were crossed.
you look worried," his wife said, looking on with him. His mortal self
did just that, as it stood a bit to one side.
always look worried. We are early, here," he replied, noting the body
language of his corporeal self.
Early and not yet joined. Do you think they're fighting? I always liked
making up with you."
smiled indulgently. "That might explain some of our fights," he
responded, humoring her a bit.
I still Catherine, here?" she asked, hovering.
course," Astral Vincent replied, enjoying his wife's pleasure as much as
he enjoyed her curiosity. They should go, now...
was Katya in Russia. Do you remember that?" She drew closer to the
it was yesterday."
or take a few hundred years."
I said. Yesterday." She danced away from him a little, and moved closer
still to the tense couple.
love. They're sad! We should help them!" the shimmering woman said.
It was one of many names he called her, and his voice held a warning.
"You know we shouldn't."
went down to the balcony anyway, and set her incandescent feet upon the stones.
He knew she would.
said we would not do this again," he reminded her, knowing it was no use,
as he swung star spun legs over the side of the wall. Even after eons, the
motion felt familiar. Still.
do not recall any such ill-advised promise," she smiled, “and I think you
should kiss me. I clearly feel bad." She looked at her mortal self. There
was concern in every line of her small, human frame. There was an answering
tension in his.
This is just what I'm talking about," her bond mate chided. She'd said
she only wanted a peek. Now, it was more. His love was ... herself. As
is just a kiss, Vincent." She brushed one across his celestial cheek,
which he returned.
before it is time is not allowed," he stated.
tone of voice was so imperious, she giggled at him.
who?" she asked.
we nearly started a war in Macedonia, that way."
spiritual voice tinkled with laughter at the memory. "Only a little one.
You were such a great big brute. And I was a princess." She glistened
with the recollection of an ancient time.
still are, from the looks of it," he told her. Not everything was always
a “constant” between them, but some things seemed to happen with more
regularity than others. Often, she had wealth. Sometimes, a conspicuous
looked in at the tastefully appointed apartment.
looks comfortable enough," she told him.
palace in Greece never looked more so," he said, eyeing the deeply tufted
that little couch I had, in Egypt?" she asked him, looking at the “dinky”
sofas in Catherine's apartment. This, too, was an odd constant between them.
smiled at her, wolfishly. Which was to say that if it was possible for a
lion-faced being to smile wolfishly, he was doing it.
purple one with the gold carvings of cats on the legs?" His gaze grew
fond, with very specific memories of lovemaking. "I have no recollection
of it whatsoever," he teased.
laughed again, and the few stars above her glimmered just a little brighter.
His love was in a merry mood, tonight. He stepped closer to her.
do not remember a thing about it.” He brushed up against her, nuzzling.
"Not the way you sat on it, or the way I did. Not the way your back bent
over the arm, or..."
I think he's hurting." She put him off, as she stepped away. "We
should go to them. We should fix it, Vicente."
looked at the clearly unhappy couple before him.
You know we can't. If we possess them, they won't remember it," her starry
husband told her.
could talk to them."
won't hear us. They can't hear us, now."
not touching them now. Oh, please, Vincenzo. Can't you see how
unhappy they are?" she asked him. The eyes he knew he could deny nothing
to took on a pleading aspect.
struggle sometimes, love,” he soothed her, watching their earthly selves.
"We always do. They will get through it. Sometimes, we never find each
other at all." He hated to remind her of the lonely lives they had both
led, when that happened. But it was necessary.
think you're shy, this time," she told his Astral self, while stepping
closer to his mortal one. "I always loved it, when you were shy."
I always loved you, no matter what," he sighed, indulging her closeness to
his mortal form. It tickled. Mortal Vincent felt a small breeze stir past his
arm. She stepped around him, then over to her human self.
has a scar!" Astral Catherine told him, indicating the marred cheek.
too, had happened more than once. The Constant Mate shrugged negligibly.
"It does not detract from your beauty. Nothing could do that," he
told her, stepping near to wrap her in his arms a moment.
They both looked at the couple before them. They were at some sort of impasse.
Vincent recognized this particular patch of ground. He moved nearer to his
mortal self, and indulged his wife. Touching his mortal self on the shoulder,
Astral Vincent whispered, "That is the most beautiful woman in the world,
across from you. Her scar only makes her more so."
would not “hear” it in his ear. But he would feel it in his mind, as if it was
his own thought. Which in a way, it was.
he had gone first! How she loved him. Now she could try. Starlit Catherine
touched the elbow of her mortal self. "Stand here. Look up. Let him see
the scar on your face," Astral Catherine whispered to herself.
Catherine leaned back her head. The New York night was its typical blaze of
light, but there was no moon. A few faint stars pushed their light through.
Star Swept Husband gave his Glittering Wife a smile, and stopped touching the
solid shoulder of his counterpart.
couple who had celebrated anniversaries past counting, stepped away, and
watched themselves from a corner of the balcony.
Vincent confided to his wife, "He's in love with her. So much, so deeply,
it's bludgeoning him. But they haven't... done anything about that yet,"
he told her.
Catherine nodded. "I see. A man did that to her." She indicated
her scar. The touch that provided communication often also provided memories.
one who still lives, I assume." Celestial Vincent knew that patch of
ground, as well.
Eternal Bride felt sorry for her terran counterpart. "We aren't lovers
yet," she confirmed. "How can we have more children, if we aren't
shook her head, stepped forward, and touched Catherine's elbow again. She
whispered, “He loves you more than his life. More than all his lives." She
looked at her husband. "But he is frightened. Stay still. It is like
tempting a deer. You have to stay still. Let him come to you."
Ever Husband stepped next to Vincent. "Go to her,” Vincent’s Astral self
whispered in his earthly ear as he set his star-shot hand on his mortal
shoulder. "Your woman is standing, with sorrow, looking up at the stars.
You should be holding her. Letting her feel your strength."
moved to stand behind Catherine, sure he hadn't meant to do that a moment ago,
but glad he had. The warmth of her brushed against his long frame.
is not long after the night you told me about Lisette," the Ever Wife told
her husband. Both Catherines scowled, as she was still holding Catherine’s
elbow, though her husband had let go of Vincent when he moved.
Always Husband nodded. "Lisa. He calls her Lisa, here."
ephemeral hand lifted. "Oh? So he doesn't call her a ---"
ah," he cut her off, knowing full well how his Catherine felt about his boyhood
crush, in this life or any other. Lisa was another fairly regular touch-point
between them. In Persia, the two women had actually brawled. The dancer had
sported the rake of Catherine's nails across her face, a thousand years ago.
my beauty. She was of no consequence. Only you are." His words warmed
her. She focused again on her mortal self.
fingertips brushed a satin clad shoulder. "See the stars?" Astral
Catherine whispered in the shell of an ear. "Those are our children. And
our children's children. We make universes, when we are good."
tilted her head to the left. "Star light, star bright."
it. Make a wish," Eternal Catherine told herself.
will you wish for, Catherine?" Her mortal consort wrapped his arms around
her shoulders. His Astral self approved.
was about being with him, as a true mate. The women both knew it. "She
doesn't want to tell you," Astral Catherine responded just before the
human one spoke.
I don't know," Catherine hedged. But she did know. "Saying it is
just habit. Like ‘When you wish upon a star,’” she quoted the children's song
Peter Pan. ‘Second star to the right, and straight on, 'til morning,’” Vincent
told the woman he loved more than his life. She nodded.
used to recite a poem about starlight to us, but I can't remember what it
was," he added.
doesn't want poetry, you idiot. She wants a kiss,” Always Vincent told himself
shortly, moving the incandescent hand to his bicep.
Catherine laughed at his impatience, and her mirth caused mortal Catherine to
smile, a little, even though she was somber.
guess we all want to go to Never Never Land, sometimes," the earthbound
woman said, and they lapsed back into silence.
Catherine let go of her charge, stepping toward the corner of the balcony again.
She took a moment to admire the glittering view of the city. Ceaseless Vincent
removed his hand from mortal Vincent's arm, but did not step far back.
never looked this stunning," the Everwife said. “Why do you think we come
to this plane, so often?" she asked.
had no idea, and he was not about to be put off.
am going to give myself a kick in the pants," he told her.
happened to that famous vow of non-interference?" she asked him coyly.
thinks JM Barrie is worthwhile bedroom conversation," he sneered.
"Catriona, have mercy. At this rate, it will take them years."
the one who said we might start a war."
glanced around her tiny terrace. "I see no armies present."
chuckled at his impatience. "These are later times. Like you once told
me, it's always easier, when we're ancients."
we're ancients, they think I'm a demi-god. Of course it's easier."
made you a king, in Sparta. Remember the helmet?” Her smile was radiant with
they used your image for a constellation, my beautiful, beautiful wife.”
was still trying to be charming. Of course, not every time between them had
been so easy.
tried to burn you, in Europe, once," she recalled.
was the Reign of Terror. They were burning everybody."
not us. You saved us." Her voice was one of loving approval.
crossed to where she stood near the terrace wall. "I will always save
you, my beautiful love. And you will always save me." He inclined his
head in a gesture so familiar, it would have looked identical to the one his
current self regularly used.
Never-ending Bride knew when she was being schmoozed. She didn’t budge. Yet.
compassion, Beauty. He's miserable." Ageless Vincent wheedled his
we can't have them make love. They won't remember. And they haven't even done
that for themselves yet. They won't understand being pushed that way,
even for their own sakes."
making love. Just a kiss. Like you said." He brushed her temple in the
familiar way that always gave her Auroral Self shivers.
say that like it's a small thing," she chided. "Fates have been
sealed, with less." She was serious, for a moment.
already know my fate." His deep voice rumbled like a birthing galaxy.
"My dear and blessed fate. It is to be with you. To make sons. And
suns. And daughters, and beautiful, beautiful grandchildren who spread our
smiled at him. She loved it when he was in a flattering mood.
at him," her husband, who could ask for anything and usually get it,
prompted. "He's in beggar’s rags, and she's damn near a queen. He's
awestruck by you, Katerina. I always am. Pity a fool. You know he loves
know he does," she said, cupping her Vincent's cheek.
gave him a look, then prepared herself to help nudge things along.
we collapse the Empire, I'm not taking responsibility this time," she
father was over-protective." He dismissed the charge as negligible.
yours was an interfering old biddy," she replied indulgently. They agreed
with each other on all counts.
Astral creatures each crossed to their respective counterparts. Catherine's
vision-self held her corporeal one gently, by the wrist. Vincent touched
himself on the bicep.
wants to kiss you," Astral Catherine whispered to herself.
Vincent was also touching Catherine as he embraced her, the cosmos' Feminine
Self could feel him, as well. Great conflict. Great love. He would die for
her. The bond shimmered, and sharpened, within him.
wants the feel of your sweet lips under his,” she continued. “He wants to be
your servant, be your slave, and yet be your master. Are you brave enough to
allow such a love?" she asked herself, never taking her eyes off her
Celestial Husband, whose head inclined.
should kiss that scar,” he urged his mortal form. "Kiss it like the
precious sign of victory that it is. She endured much, to reach you. She will
endure more, bringing your children forth. You should be on your knees. Or
you should hold her closer to the stars, in thanks, that she may see her
children better. You should... kiss her."
mortal couple began to speak.
said it together, turning. Their “partners” stepped away, again.
been wrong... No… You haven't been." Again, practically together, just
a few syllables apart.
smiled a little, letting the tension of the disagreement fade between them.
am sometimes stubborn," Vincent admitted. "But it is not because I
am certain I am right. It is because I am certain I am... lost," he told
her. Lost to her. Lost to the clearest path of safety. Just… lost.
can never be lost, when I'm here," she told him, needing him to believe
shining, celestial head nodded at mortal Catherine's mortal wisdom.
needs you," the Moonlit Husband told both his brides. His hand lifted.
"Katya, tell her how much he needs her."
astral form set her hands on her hips for a moment, "And how should I know
how much that is?" the Ephemeral Being demanded.
husband tilted his head again, chiding. She knew.
all right. But it makes me sound like I'm bragging,” Catherine’s star-drenched
form chuckled. Taking a moment to compose her thoughts, she lifted her hands a
moment, breathed in the cosmos, and gathered her shimmering memories, before
she settled those hands on Catherine's arm.
loves you," she crooned. "You are the last thing he thinks of when
he goes to sleep, and the first thing on rising. He loves you. He's afraid of
how much. Afraid you will shatter him. He loves you.” The words were a soft
purr of feminine sound in Catherine’s ear. “He’s afraid another man will want
you more, will offer you better. He doesn't know how much you belong to him
yet. He's not sure he can sort out the difference between what he's afraid to
want, and what is there for him to have. You have to help him to it. You have
to help him see."
husband approved of the message, nodding.
Celestial Woman continued to whisper in Catherine's ear, the one near the scar.
"He'll be lonely, if you can't help him to it, help him to you. So
terribly lonely. The despair of it will break his heart, the aloneness so
terrible to bear. You have to help him see the other path, the one full of
starlight, and children. You have to make him see it all so he can see
you. And not see his fear."
Woman of All nodded to her Timeless Mate. It was his turn, now.
loves you," Vincent's Eternal Self whispered to his other Eternal Self.
"Loves you in her fierceness and in her languor. Loves you more than she
has ever loved, or ever will. You surround all she thinks, and all she feels.
And no, you don't deserve it. No man does. No man can. It's all right. We
are all humble, before our Goddesses." Ever Catherine smiled at that.
She was being wooed. Again. Still.
bring you joy." Her sparkling self had eyes only for her love.
bring you immortality," her love returned.
the terrace, mortal Vincent shifted his stance, and moved away, a little. If
he sensed anything, it was lost in the sensation of his own inner turmoil.
don't deserve you. I can't deserve you," Vincent told his Catherine.
has never been true. I've never understood why you thought it," Catherine
replied, stepping closer to him again. "But it doesn't mean I don't
understand that you feel it."
nodded, accepting her words. Turning back to the beautiful view, he stood
behind her again, enjoying the sensation of her sweet curves as they melded
against his muscular length. He settled his arms around her, lightly.
took in the panorama with him, feeling the breeze of the March night. The
cityscape glistened in front of them, like brightly set diamonds in an
impossible, mad setting.
not sure any man deserves his love." Vincent regarded the glitter before
him, aware that behind each light, a story was happening. One like theirs,
perhaps. Perhaps. His arms tightened around her, enfolding. He wanted badly
to kiss her scar, very lightly.
none of us deserve the love we get," Catherine returned. "Or perhaps
we all do. Or perhaps we're just fated."
Isn't that an unusual thing for an attorney to believe in?" Vincent
asked, loving her.
are a law giver, here. Again," Vincent's Nova-born Self said to his love,
as he stepped away from his mortal frame.
you are a patchwork prince. Again," his wife returned, also stepping
time it was like this, you were an Oracle, and I was a teacher. Or was it the
other way around?” He smiled at her.
laughed at his reminiscence. They had been many things to each other, over the
eons. Many wonderfully constant yet unique things.
never been like this. It's never exactly the same way twice." She
smiled. No, it wasn't. But there were certain consistencies, almost always.
not sure I ever did believe in fate ... before I met you." Catherine put
her arms over Vincent's and squeezed. "Do you know what the date is,
The equinox?" he asked.
The equinox. Equal day. Equal night. The world, just at the place where it isn't
tipped more either one way or the other. Balanced. Even."
relaxed against his long frame some more, willing him to
feel the words, as he stood. Equal. Balanced. Neither owing more than the
other, or owning more. Having all, just in that they had each other.
am not your equal, Catherine." It was a thing he had been struggling
with, for a while.
You're my better. I'm just trying to convince myself that you could love me
anyway.” She gave him the words of her heart.
turned her, gently. She was not teasing him. But she was nudging him, a
can do nothing else," he told her, sealing the vow with a kiss.
seeking, and warm, Vincent's singular mouth tested hers. Tasted. Felt her
I love this part! Do you think it's our first one?" the Boundless Woman
one, or near it." Her husband moved close to her. "Do you want
you know I do. Should we?" Constant Catherine asked him.
course we shouldn't. But we're going to.” He held her hand and stepped into
his lion's frame, as she stepped into her feminine one. Just for a moment.
flared and comets raced, and the stars overhead glittered.
and Daddy were kissing. All was right, with the universe. As it always was,
and always had been.
always would be.
love you, my Catherine," a deep voice very much like Vincent's own said,
I love you, my Vincent," a softly sweet voice replied. She reached up a
hand to touch his cheek, and he closed his eyes in contentment.
am going to make children with this woman. One day. And my sons will be among
the finest of men, and my daughters will be the glory that is their mother, all
over again. It all goes on. Forever. We are all star stuff. And nothing is
ever lost. He
placed a soft kiss in her palm, and then released her.
were giving him ideas." Catherine's limitless form stepped away as she
took her husband's arm. It was time for them to go. Other universes to
visit. Their children, everywhere, needing tending. Well, not “needing” it.
Not exactly. But the Eternal Couple enjoying it, just the same.
already has ideas. I always do. I didn't think it more than he did. I just
knew it was there." He kissed her hand.
soon? They’ve barely just kissed," she asked him, teasing. She did not
quite believe him.
don't tell you everything, my Catherine," he chuckled.
back her head and laughed at that, the sound like a ringing bell, in the
cosmos. Stars sparkled. Mother was laughing, with Father. Of course she was.
we go then?" The Immortal Groom asked his Immortal Bride.
should… but I'd like to stay near." She just decided it.
can visit with friends! Surely Narcissa and Kristopher are around here,
somewhere," she reasoned prettily.
smiled an indulgent smile, his nod a slight movement of surrender to her
wants. She knew she was being celestially humored. Just as he knew they would
not wander too far, for a bit. She loved to be in the room the moment her
children were born. Loved to help herself through it, when she could.
fuss,” she said. “We won’t stay long. Just long enough for the
christening." A year or two. Or five. A tick of the clock, in Eternal
shimmering beings watched their mortal selves embrace again. Kiss. Deeply.
you will, Beloved." He glanced over at the still kissing couple.
does not look like we will have very long to wait."
Gratefully inspired by:
Any Soul that Drank the Nectar
Any soul that drank the nectar of
your passion was lifted.
From that water of life he is in a
state of elation.
Death came, smelled me, and sensed
your fragrance instead.
From then on, Death lost all hope of
Mewlana Jalaluddin Rumi
you are in your own fairy tale, I wish you love. ~Cindy
The constellations Leo and Libra, the
lion and the scales of justice.
Vincent and Catherine
We are all star stuff.